thoughts of today...

As I sit here on my couch... after having just ate a bowl of cookie dough ice cream... thinking about my day...

I went to the doctor for my regular check up.. and dont worry everything is just fine with baby girl...But me on the other hand well lets just say I have gained quite a bit of weight this last month.

It was seriously such a huge shock for me to see the weight on the scale, because i honestly didnt think I had gained that much. Maybe in my belly, but nothing else felt "bigger"

My doctor said that he wasnt concerned about it because we just make big babies in my family, and that if it started to be a concern he would let me know.

Next month is my glucose test, so I will know if there is anything more to be worried about.

In the last few weeks I have really started to feel pregnant, and that I am getting rounder.

I feel her move a lot more and a lot stronger than before. She likes to move around early in the morning (just like her dad) and then late at night (just like her mom), then we I eat really sweet snacks! haha

I have started to retain a little water and I really wish it would move away from my face and just go somewhere else... but thats just not the case.

But in all of this "uncomfortable-ness" I cant help but think how lucky I am to have this little miracle in the first place.. So I will take it all in stride and just keep trucking along.

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grateful

There have been quite of few things that I have been super grateful for lately!

1. My Zachary- Even though he is far away he always reminds me of how much he is proud of me and for the things that I am doing here on my own. I dont give him enough credit sometimes, but it really makes things better when he tells me how proud he is of me.

2. My close friends I have here in Idaho. I really cant say enough how much it has helped to have people here that I know care about me! 

3. Awesome clearance deals! seriously I hit the mother load the other day.

I went to Walmart and saw that they had some packs of Gerber onsies on sale.. ($2 off) and I thought to myself, Im going to come and get some tomorrow. I had to go to work and really didnt have a lot of time, so I left and thought I will come back tomorrow. And so I did, and boy was I happy I waited a day. As soon as Aysia and I walked to the baby section they lady was marking them down to $1...CAN YOU SAY AWESOME!!! So I stocked up... Baby Girl ( or Pink Baby as Grayson calls her) is pretty much stocked up on onsies till she is three years old!!!!! Not to mention I bought a three pack of sleepers, some hats to match, two packs of bibs(3 in each), theree pairs of shoes, and three pairs of pants... I think that was it. But I only spent $30!! Talk about bargain shopping! I knew my mom would be so proud!!!

4. Surprise presents!

This week I received a surprise from my mother-in-law- a cute little taggies outfit so beautifully wrapped from Von Maur!

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Some of the cutest TINY TOMS from my friend Emily from back home.. who actually lives out west now as well!!

So very grateful!

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So very happy, baby girl will be 23 weeks tomorrow. Getting closer!

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I was seriously so shocked when both came. Im pretty sure I cried! (you can blame it on the hormones or just the fact that they were so incredible nice!!!)

Happy Day!!

So a while back Zach and I got this mac g5 and we were so excited about it because I could use it for my photo stuff, and it was something we could put more memory into and yadda yadda....
But we didn't not have the time, smarts, or want to put something into a computer that wasn't really working. It froze a lot and would pop up with this crazy error that was written in I think just about every language there is, and then just turn off... loosing all of the work I was doing. It was really frustrating and the computer was slightly huge, so I just said lets cut our loses and get rid of it!!! So I sold it. Which was harder than I thought it was going to be. I was a little sad to say that I literally had no computer, even though I rarely even turn that one on. So we did some research and found some suitable laptops for a good price, and then Zach gave me the dreaded..."its your decision" Ughh I hate that one, it always feel like a ton of bricks on my shoulders, and that's no light decision like where to eat for dinner, that's like a chunk of change that would be leaving our bank account.

Then today Zach called me after work like he usually does, but he was surprisingly pleasant and sounded really pleased... then he told me we had some extra money coming in that he didn't expect and that I should go get the computer we talked about!!! I was so excited! It seriously made my day!

I am no longer a full time Mac user, which I know, I know.. I always said I would never go back. But in this day in age, and in this economy, a working computer is golden!!! So I was sold!

So I now have a working computer! And I feel like I can finally blog like a normal person again! No more cell phone blogging!

And of course I celebrated by watching this last Monday's episode of Bachelorette and a snoasis! Lovely indeed!

Other than my new wonderful computer, I have been getting very uncomfortable lately. I seriously feel like within the last few days baby girl has doubled. There is definitely no mistaking that I am pregnant now, and baby girl likes to sit on all kinds of stuff in there making my back and belly hurt. Don't get me wrong, I will take it all just to know that she is healthy and safe in there. But it sure has been making sleep a little more difficult. I was kind of comparing my "baby bump" size to the average 22 week, and I have decided that I am really happy that she seems to be a big baby. I kind of knew it was going to be that way, seeing as I was the smallest baby in my immediate family at 10lbs. 1 oz. (yes, I know, my poor mother... she also had a 12 pounder, so really I was easy!) I think it will be a little bit of an easier transition after she is born if she is a little bigger. They always seem to be less breakable that way!  (most mothers already are probably like yeah right... shes crazy.. try delivery.. But I'm surprisingly not scared about it at all... that's all just temporary, and if I can survive being thrown from a moving SUV going 75 down the highway, I'm pretty sure I can survive quite a bit)

All in all things are still good, seeing my sister here in a few days and Zach in just a few more after that. I am really excited for the next few weeks. It will be a great break for the summer!

I haven't really talked much about my experience with my road to pregnancy just because it was always a very touchy subject. Most people that are close to me kind of know the struggles we went through in getting pregnant in the first place, but it's not something I ever really wanted to share with the whole world. It a very sensitive subject and it was something I really struggled with for quite some time.
I certainly do believe that everything has its time, and I've come to realize that more and more as things happen in my life. But the time leading up to this pregnancy was a trying time. To make a long story short, we were going to the doctor to get some questions answered, but we never got to find out why it was taking so long because we got pregnant before we could find out! we feel very blessed to have this baby coming into our lives, and believe it truly happened at the right time.

I find myself thinking about all of this quite a bit lately. With Zach being gone this summer I have really had to pick myself up and get things done on my own. Which, I admit, has been a struggle at times with all these crazy changes I'm going through. But it just makes me realize that even though it's hard, I have really learned that I kind of needed this time to know how strong of a person I really can be. ( even strong women can have a few "mental breakdowns" once in a while) ;) and all of it makes me really appreciate the things that Zach does or me on a daily basis, and not to mention the huge sacrifice he is making by working this summer so far away to better our family.

I try to remind myself of these things when I'm feeling blue or just plain icky( aka heartburn, or achy belly) and it always makes me think of the bright side of it all. I'm so happy to have this baby and couldn't be more excited about her arrival into this world! And don't they say heartburn equals hair!? I hope she gets Zachs curls!

I found this picture on pinterest ( of course) and thought it was nice!

There's water in the basement and the pilot light is out...

Name that movie?!?

Oceans 13( I think, well it's one of the oceans...)

Anywho, I had my first experience with a pilot light. I am pretty sure I knew what it was before, but I had no idea how to light it or why is even went out in the first place. But the other night I get all ready to take my shower and dundundun... No hot water!!!! I was so worried, and I didn't know what to do! So I went up to my neighbors and see if he could get it started... Nothing! Darn thing wouldnt stay on! So I washed my hai in cold water and went to bed! The fix it guy came to fix it the next night, but you never really realize how much you miss hot water when you don't have it!

I also recently found out that my job doesn't allow me to take any time off in July, so my plan to go home at the end of July isn't going to happen anymore! :(
I am really sad that i don't get to go back home, but Zach and I have planned to go home after graduation so the baby can make her Iowa appearance, and we both get the chance to be home!

I have been stocking up on the baby goods! So far I have
- a few outfits/bibs (great deal at Dillard's)
- lots of onsies! ( thanks mom and Abbie!!)
- some more clothes my mom got
- & some more outfits my sister got for her!!
- her new car seat
- a bouncy seat
- and now I'm redoing some burp cloths with cute fabric on the back!

1/2 way!

So I'm official half way done with my pregnancy! It's exciting an nerve wrecking all wrapped into one!
I just bought a car seat online, thanks target baby sale!! And I hit some awesome sales on Carter's stuff at Dillard's!! So she now will have a seat to ride in, and a few clothes to wear!
(all pink clothes... Zach is in trouble!!)

I have been super lucky because I really haven't had any troubles or sicknesses, other than the fact that my husband is a 20 hour drive from here! I have finally started getting a bit of heart burn, but if that doesn't last... I will be just fine!! Oh and of course trouble sleeping, but that just makes for good afternoon naps!

I have finally started feeling her wiggle around in there, which is a very cool feeling. The first time was while I was giving free samples of fudge at work and I had a super awkward look on my face... And so the family was like uhh?.. So I told them and got the biggest congrats! It was pretty cool!

I'm so very excited that it's June!! I have a lot to look forward to. My sister, her husband and my nephew are coming out here to visit me! Then at the end of the month Zach and I are meeting in Florida! I miss him, and it's going to be an awesome trip!!!!

Oh and I finally got my comfy new shoes in the mail! Hopefully my feet feel wonderful now!!!!

Oh and I found the most beautiful diaper bag!!! Too bad it's a pretty penny!!!